. keep it hidden within me .

Wednesday, November 25, 2009;

unhappy

hasnt been able to blog regularly though sometimes i really feel like blogging. those times when i really feel like stopping whatever im doing just to blog.

i been feeling very worked up these days. or shld i say since last week. i know my temper hasnt been gd, ppl ard me can sense it. me too, though i just keep it at the back of my mind. i want to be nice to ppl but i cant help being "not-so-nice".

I REALLY CANOT TAKE IT. I FEEL VERY VERY STRESS. SOMETIMES I JUS WANA BREAK DOWN AND CRY OUT LOUD!! YES JUST CRY OUT LOUDLY. DUN CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS MAY THINK OF ME OR HOW THEY MIGHT LOOK AT ME. I REALLY FREEAAKKING DUN CARE!!! WHY IS EVERYTHING ME ME ME???? ISNT DERE ANY OTHERS DAT CAN TAKE THE LOAD OF ME?? I FEEL REALLY STRESS BUT WHO KNOWS?? THEY THINK DAT IM ABLE TO DO IT, IM JUST AFRAID THEY PLACED THEIR HOPES TOO HIGH ON ME. SORRY IF DATS THE CASE. I CANT HELP IT. I JUST DO WAD I CAN. DATS WAD I CAN SAY.

sorry for the outbreak. i needed it. i need some place to throw out my unhappiness and temper. i shld really try to control my temper instead of giving everyone the face that they owe me something. im sorry.

i shall stop here. need to rest early, recharge my battery for the battle tmr. i shall try my best to finish off wad i can before i go on my break.. dats the best i can do..

no worries abt me, i'll be fine. just v fed up wid work and dats abt everyting dat irritates me. other den dat, everything's okie and fine. singing and drinking makes me forget work. even for dat short few hrs only.

9:59 PM