just a little quick post to update before i go into my lala land..
i rebonded my hair yest! super happy cos my hair is nw all straight and and nt curvy. but abit nt used to it. it feels like the first time when i rebonded my hair in poly. not too bad, like it the way it is nw. feels abit prettier. HAHA
today wasnt really concentrating on work. duno why. my mind wandered here and dere. tot of lots of things. as usual la me. super worrywart.
i was thinking, maybe i should get back to the life whereby im nt so dependent on bf. before i hv a bf, i was really independent. nt say very, but im quite independent la. duno how to explain. and dun ask me why i tink this way. cause i jus suddenly had this thought.
when he's in camp, he'll msg me every now and den whenever he can. which makes me abit sian when he does nt do so when he's out of camp or when he's busy. but today, it just set me thinking. i was thinking dat it'll really tie him down if he have to do so. and i noe he'll be sian and tiring having to "report" to me every nw and den.
esp when he's gonna be out of camp for good this coming may. it may seemed too far to think abt it nw, (still gt afew months ma) but i feel dat i sld start getting used to the idea of him nt msging me dat much..
i felt abit sian when he told me dat he might nt be meeting me for his nights out tmr. halfway through work this morn super moody. but by lunch time, i convinced myself dat i canot be so sticky to him all the time. so well, i told him its okay. just inform me if he's nt meeting me can le. haha. so nw, im really alrite wid it le.
so lets see how tmr goes den! :)
okay abit sidetrack liao. the point im driving at is dat i sldnt be so dependent on him.. dats wad i tink. and i tink he'll feel the same way sooner or later. maybe when he's out of army, he'll feel dat way cos he'll be juggling work and his part time studies tgt. i hope by dat time, i can stop being so dependent on him.. can i?
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on a side note, today i was tinking of getting part time studies as well. definately nt the same course as him la. jus some course dat i like or something which will help my work-life. but, i tot of the fees and etc etc. dun even noe if i can cope with it. its jus a thought la. shall see hw it goes..
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i feel dat its time dat i get back to the life where i hang out with my frens instead of cooping myself at home all the time. but the frens i used to hang out with are no longer dere anymore. maybe i should hang out wid the frens who stood by me or the new frens i've made. im sure this time i can keep them wid me..
Labels: learning to be independent
