i've been wanting to blog for days but i just couldnt find the time and energy. as usual..
anw, im back from my taiwan trip! and of cause our company's batam "retreat". hahaha. a lil back track to update on my life..
batam trip :
it wasnt dat bad as wad i've expected. it was a lil better den expected. food was so-so. dere is like practically nothing dere at the turi beach. not even any shop at the place where we're staying! goodness. i wonder wad the tourists can do if they go dere for a vacation. maybe dat place is jus purely for relaxation.. away from the hectic lifestyle we have nw..
nite scenery was nice. beautiful. but it would have been better if the one beside me is my dearest instead of collegues. haha. but well, no choice ~
anw, 2 days 1 nite just passed lidat. missed baby alot alot. first time travelling myself without him. abit torturous. hope no next time..
taiwan trip :
it was a nice trip with baby and his family. first time travelling with his family members. abit not used to the idea cause im used to travelling wid baby alone. travelling wid his family means his attention is not on me only..
had a few quarrels wid baby during the trip. really unpleasant. hate it when we quarrel. everytime we do dat, i feel as if we're enemies shooting darts at each other. it really pierces through my heart.. hurts damn alot for both of us i guess.
anw, forgotten le. dats wad we agreed. to forgive and forget, never rmb grudges.. i hope he will too.
his cousin talked abt his study plan during the trip. got me all thinking again. he encourages baby to go study overseas. i noe his mum really want him to go overseas for studies too. when we went back to the rm dat nite, had a lil discussion wid baby. i told him if he wants to study overseas, den just go ahead with it. im fine with it. but he say he wont be going overseas for studies. he told me, if im not wid him, he would have gone ahead. but nw he has me, so he will nt go. i felt really bad hearing dat. i hope im not hindering his future..
watched him slp dat nite. secretly cried myself to slp thinking..
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back to SG, life as usual again. work is crazily hectic cause i've to clear the stuffs they did for me. abit sian but wad can i do? its me myself who caused this hectic-ness cause i went on leave. -.-
driving lessons are on schedule now i guess. have been booking the lessons and packing myself for as much lessons i can cause i've missed out on quite abit. scared i will forget how to drive if i nv drive for too long.
nowadays abit over-spent i guess. not to mention, the money spent for driving is horrible. i knew learning driving would be expensive right from the start. but, i start to feel the pinch right nw cause i feel dat im spending a lil too much. not only on driving but on the whole. damn, i should really learn to save.
my savings plan always failed, and i never really saved much in the end.
anw, i've booked my TP already. in feb next yr. i really wish i can pass on the first attempt. cause i dun wanna disappoint baby. i noe he wants me to pass on the first attempt too. i can sense it. i guess i must work double hard to concentrate and learn as much as i can before the test.
good luck to myself. i will do it!
when i pass my TP, i will work double-ly hard to save back all the money!
promise myself! haha!
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baby talked to me about his studies just nw. i duno why whenever we touches on this topic i would start thinking alot. maybe all the while i've been thinking alot just dat im hiding it away purposely. i dun wanna tink abt the problems dat would come along. i dun wanna have any problems with him..
he keeps assuring me dat everything would go smoothly. i really hope so.. i promise i would hold on to our relationship no matter wad. promise me u will too..
these days, we keep having quarrels.. even over the most minor stuffs. really hope this is just a passing phrase for our relationship. maybe being together for some time, (in fact going to 2 yrs), sometimes we tend to overlook each other's feeling. i always hear ppl say, when u're together for too long, the relationship tends to get bland and feelings fade away. i noe our feelings for each other hasnt fade away, not abit at all cause we can be really sweet to each other when we're nt quarrelling. maybe we should be more understanding, more giving to each other. dat way, we wouldnt have all these problems. but as the saying goes, "saying is easier den doing it". i will try my best..Labels: his study plans..
