Monday, October 20, 2008;
i need some breathe!
first thing first, IM BACK FROM BINTAN!
yaya, i noe dats like 1 week ago. but i got no time to blog la! im a lil busy woman. haha!
bintan's fun! esp with baby ard.. he nv fails to brighten up my day.. waking up seeing him next to me, having ME hug him to slp (it shld hv been the other way round rite -.-) it was a really nice nice feeling.. miss it so much ever since our last travel tgt..
the only bad thing abt bintan is dat the things dere are nt cheap at all! i tot dat it'll be cheaper den sg but turns out.. WRONG lo! hahaha ~ but nvm la. like wad baby say, we go travel canot every buck also wana save, if not it'll be no fun anymore cos we'll be watching over our budget all the time.
food dere wasnt dat bad. stay dere like every meal eat till very full lidat. haha. we had a short canoeing/kayaking session under the bright bright sunny weather! weather was really nice. i bet those who love tanning (eg: weiling), would love the sun dere! can tan till wooooohooo colour! hahaha ~
like wad fiona and weiling said, they went bintan to look for me. SO, i tink weiling got her tanning too la hor??! haha
anw, after living for almost 21 yrs (almost - nt yet), i saw fireflies for the very first time!! so so excited lo ~ thanks to baby.. cos he paid 30bucks plus per person for the firefly tour. cos he noe i wanna see firefly so much.. haha!
the trip out to the firefly destination was damn scary la. i tot going in a grp would be fine, but i nv knew dat the group = me + baby and another couple! anw, the driver drove us out in a car. super dark outside without street lights. imagine hw worried i am..
i tot the driver is some bad guy or wad lo.. keep thinking where he's bringing us. den keep looking, holding onto baby's hand. in the end, he bought us to a jetty where we're goin to take a boat. more scary!! damns.. somemore the weather dat nite is.. WET. cos its raining. i mean drizzling. so halfway through our speed boat ride, it drizzle and we wore the raincoats on the boat.
supeerrrr cold i swear. even though i was wearing my own clothes plus jacket plus the raincoat. no warmth at all except the warmth from baby comforting me dat everything's fine..
we waited at the hut somewher in the middle of the water. wait awhile for the rain to stop? and yes the rain stopped. very miracle-ly cos i tot it wouldnt. and so we continued our firefly tour. back to the speed boat, we took the boat into the deep. i was still scared cos i stil haven see my firefly till this moment. freaking -.- i was worrying abt where they're bringing us, worrying abt the crocs lying in the sea or river wadever it is. (i really think dere is lo) worrying abt snakes.. hahaha
i tink i worry too much..
but the moment i saw firefly, i was like !!!!!! totally nt scared le la! hahaha.. cos all in my mind is "firefly soooooo cute!!" somemore our firefly tour guide help us catch the firefly and put them in our hands. super super cute. i tink i fell in love wid firefly alrd..
the way back to the hotel, i really cant bear to leave the fireflies. hw i wish sg also gt firefly. maybe got? but i nv see before lehh.. -.-
very reluctant to leave bintan cos i noe i'll be back to all the stress and work, back to reality.
on the way back i saw a really cute cute lil boy. ang mo de. super cute la ~ i smile he follow me smile. i laugh loudly he follow me laugh loudly. ahhh! super melt..
baby dun jealous okay! haha
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17th oct my grandmother (mother's side) was hospitalised cos she got an operation. was damn worried. the day before, i tot abt ah ma. i missed her so much. couldnt stop crying thinking abt her. i guess its the effect of ah ma dat makes me dislike gg to hosp. gg to hosp reminds me of the past visits to hosp visiting her..
i missed having her around..
ah ma 你好吗? 我很好.. 我们都很好.. 你可以放心了..
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the operation was a success. grandmother is well in hosp. really glad. being the very gd bf - as usual, baby cooked fish soup for grandmother. he's really nice.. which bf would cook for gf's grandparents? i bet not many..
im glad i found one :)
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work nowadays aint really very smooth-going. really feel so f up sometimes. i've got so so much work in hand, and i feel so stressed up. i tink i stress myself up. wadever. i jus hope this period will pass fast. i duno hw much longer i can take tis..
i feel like breaking down.
i am breaking down soon.
please give me some breathing space.
i freaking need it.