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Saturday, October 06, 2007;

tiredd and out

My blog is dead man. I guess dere wouldnt be anyone reading anymore. But nvm, just forget it.

Its been 1 mth plus plus since i last blogged. One mth plus isnt too long nor too short. But so many things happened in between dat im getting so so tiredd. I wish i can hv a lng long break from all these. I wish..

Grandma was hospitalised some time ago. Came out of hosp and went in again several times. This time she's in hosp again. Im worried, im scared. Felt so helpless dat dere's nth i can do to help at all..

She's one of the dearest person to me. Someone who took care of me, bought me up till i transformed into a lady today.

I really really hope dat she'll get well soon..

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Work is still the same. Still do make several mistakes at times, which some really send me panicking. Bt nvm, still hv to get used to it dont i?

I wonder if i'll pass the probation period. Maybe they'll decide to drop me when the probation period is up? Or they wld wan to extend the probation period? Or they might just confirmed me as permanent staff? I dunooo.. Cos everything seemed so vague nw..

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Ever since i gt into a relationship, i learned many things. But i guess i also lose quite abit. i lost some frens, Cos we seldom contact anymore. Sometimes thinking backk, its really disheartening. I nv wanted to lose any of them. they are my precious frens and they still are. maybe its me. I've neglected them. But true frens stay till the end, isnt it?

Anw, im sld be contented cos even if everybody leaves, i still hv my darlingg xianie who will always be dere for me. I guess so. haha! Or will she leave me too!!?

Lets hope nt!

Dere's one thing i dun understand. Why aint i losing FATS?! damnss. %&#!

Thats all folks!

9:22 AM