Thursday, December 08, 2005;
life aint smooth sailing. *EDITED
life's a popularity contest?
layyin's nick triggered this qn off my mind. and it seriously set me thinking..
maybe this is wad life is all about. friendships, work, relationships all needed the so-called "popularity". if you dun hv it, well, just too bad. cause only the best remains.
the fact is, its hard to be popular. as in well liked by everyone. its just not easyy.
do we really hv to be a hypocrite in order to survive in this world? i mean it sucks to be a hypocrite. im sure the person who's acting nice, being the hypocrite wouldnt feel good either. who will if you're constantly acting and not being yourself?
i understand that sometimes, under some circumstances, one might be forced to be hypocritical.
dats why i always say, i pity hypocrites. ahh!
i dunno why im suddenly in this ohh-so-deep mood. been thinking alot. i realised sometimes im really too bent on winning dat i've neglected.. my own feelings. stuborness is in me.
forgiveness is good. i mean its real nice. we sld learn to forgive and forget. if cant forget, at least forgive alright. so yeahh. to all whom i kinda dislike/hate, right now, i shall forgive and shake it off wid a BLAH!
hahas. yeahh. and something's very wrong with me these days.
you know, the whole week, i've been having bad lucks. as in, not very lucky la. things are not going the way it shld be. YET, i've been very tolerant. i just shrugged it off.
this worries me. HAHA! wad if one day i jus fed up? all those bottled up in me will just be let out. i've got a very bad temper u noe!
lol. i guess i just hv to control. CONTROL ya ~
went town wid xian todayy. in search of my jacket. in her 1hr 40 mins break, we's supposed to get my jacket. quite a challenge huh?! hahas!
in the end, my jacket wasnt available anymore. its all sold outt. damnit! dat jacket very nice can. i like it sooooo much. le coq sportif de. white jacket wid red "le coq sportif" sighs. firstly, the le coq sportif sling bag i like is SOLD OUT. next its my jacket. you see, im jus so unlucky these days. even xian said so. it mus be.
anyway, i bought another jacket which i kinda like it too. PUMA one. hehs. so its not a wasted trip to town afterall. budden we had no time to shop for other stuffs. ARGH! next time ~
xian saw the bag dat she wanted sooooo long ago. dat crazy gal even wanted to order online. BUT! we saw it in town! hahs. she's SO gonna buy it.
hmmm. watching yummy yummy jus now. i so like BEN YEO aka terry in the show. he's so nice and CUTE! yeahh. the story's nice.
in the show, dere's this guy "jiale" who likes this gal "mandy". budden mandy's younger sista "lemon" likes jiale. so its a love triangle. mandy knows dat her sista lemon likes jiale. so though she likes jiale very much, she's planning on giving up.
and the show jus now, i was so "kan jiong" (nervous) when the couple jiale and mandy search for each other. im practically so engrossed. in the end they still didnt met. im so sad. =(
i dun wan jiale to be wid lemon. i DONT WAN!!!
it's PIGGY's BIRTHDAY tmr! lets have some fun ~ hehhs!!!
life aint smooth sailing all the time.
what we can do is to hang on!
i love my bestie. =))
