Thursday, September 08, 2005;
bits and pieces.
i recalled a story that my friend once told me.
she fell in love wid a guy who's 6 yrs older than her. initially, things started out fine. everything was normal. cause she's always the careful one. hiding away her feelings from the guy. the one secretly loving at a distance.
the guy found out abt the gal's feelings not long after. they talked through phone calls. through the calls, the guyy keep telling the girl that he's just a crush to her. it wouldnt work. all those demoralising stuffs said to her.
one day, she decided dat she want to end all these hurtings she felt. she avoided him. rejected all his calls. and even deleted awayy his msg without reading the content. the guyy persisted with his actions till he got angry and fed up too. they started a cold war.
seeing each other around doesnt make things better. instead, it got worst. its like, strangers. yet they knew each other. friends around them didnt know what to do. they couldnt help. all they could do is to watch helplessly. both sides wouldnt give in.
for 2 mths, the cold war continues. finally, the girl couldnt stand it anymore. she said "sorry" to the guy for all dat she had done. she wanted to be frens again. just frens. the guy didnt blame her. instead he asked her abt her well-being. she was touched.
being friends with the one she love loved was hard. especially when the guy constantly care for her. and once again, she fell for him. it wasnt something she could control. she did stupid things like buying food to his house. silly lil minor stuffs.
she didnt mind. though everyday she's hurt by the stuffs he told her. sometimes his coldness towards her. his unreasonable-ness. she tolerated. all because she love.
the guy msged her everyday for her exams, wishing her lucks. told her stuffs like "what if one day i like you?". even calling her for chats practically every nite. all these showed signs of love, even if its a tiny bit? yet, its not the case.
the phone calls ceased. the msging stopped. everything changed. the girl wondered what happened. she didnt know. until the dayy, she saw him with another girl. through her friends, she came to know that the guy is chasing another girl.
she knew that the girl he's chasing loves him backk. she knew.
their friend told her. the guy once said "these two girls are like 2 marbles on my hand. i can either choose to keep it in my pocket, or simply just throws it away."
she couldnt believe it. heartbroken and speechless.
she left him a msg on the phone. wishing him the best of lucks for pursueing the girl he liked. the guy replied a mere thanks.
friends later told her that the guy got together with the girl he liked. she wished them the best sincerely.
months later, she got over him. totally over him. things between them was pretty much the same. yet, everybody could sense dat its not the same anymore. from a kinda close friend, to being purely PLAIN friends. a hi-bye friend.
the girl's friends were angry with the guy. for playing ard with her feelings. manipulating her. leading her on. she felt so too. but didnt blamed the guy. cause in her own opinions, it takes two hands to clap.
they still kept in contact. the guy broke off wid his gf. but, the feelings the girl once felt for him is no longer dere. she felt sorry for the guyy. and dats all. nothing more.
the sad past of hers. its not even a relationship. a one-sided love to say? maybe. its something dat will always remind her of the hurts.
guys ah guys, pls dont play with gal's feelings. you wouldnt understand the hurt that will be inflicted. wounds are temporary. scars are forever.
signs off.
